As you know I published my book....here is part of the book if you interested in reading it...
The Site where you want to order...
http://www.lulu.com/shop/rawan-alhussaini/catrebelchic/hardcover/product-21408030.html
Will be in Amazon as well, soon...
Well here it goes...
Have you constantly read novels that indicates japanese american culture. well here it is, the trait of Toru Naitokurora, As in Night Crawler. Toru is twenty five years old who is living to her dreams of becoming the darkness Night Crawler.
Besides she is a cultivated passionate youth who is mostly serenity but she doesn't allow you to destroy her...its Genre are thriller, romance, slice of life, mystery, and chaos full of illusions and delusions...
The Site where you want to order...
http://www.lulu.com/shop/rawan-alhussaini/catrebelchic/hardcover/product-21408030.html
Will be in Amazon as well, soon...
Well here it goes...
Have you constantly read novels that indicates japanese american culture. well here it is, the trait of Toru Naitokurora, As in Night Crawler. Toru is twenty five years old who is living to her dreams of becoming the darkness Night Crawler.
Besides she is a cultivated passionate youth who is mostly serenity but she doesn't allow you to destroy her...its Genre are thriller, romance, slice of life, mystery, and chaos full of illusions and delusions...
I was wide awake; I was confused yet feeling so strange. I was in this house. I don't even know what I was; and what I am doing here.
I know that I am a person; a person that lives on earth. what is earth? I didn't know? but something in me kept telling me who am I and why I am here; and telling all about life. where once i had something; but ended with nothing at all; its like someone took me from the place I was to this. Soon...
I have changed to some kind of monster I guess; or the name that I have right now Toru the night crawler. That tries her best to be accepted in this world; and to be protected.
This month I have been with a friend; amazing friend. Mai, she told me that she knew me since I was a child and I moved when I was 18 and left with my parent to a different town; she knew my parents and she knew what happen to them. But later she’s like you were here with someone; I was really?
I never knew she was telling me the truth. She said I was with a handsome guy and that we decided to live here, and that we moved to this town. Then; my father called us over for my mother’s birthday. It was a wonderful birthday. An interesting one. They were happy that I was finally with someone.
With a great guy. So they want to spend some time with him; we were married for one year; but as soon as we did we left town and I never got the change to go back and hang out a bit more with my parents; so we decided to stay for a week or so.
The week that we stayed in was almost going to be over. But later that day; my parents decided to a make a huge party surprise for us. It was amazing; but when the night ended; we decided to leave to go back to our place near to my parent’s house. And then; later that night we both heard an explosion.
We both panicked; we looked at the window; I could see my house is burned down. I went out quickly; but he called me; trying to tell me to be careful and not to go there. I couldn’t wait; my parents are in there; I should do something. I ran there not knowing what is happening around me.
All I hear is screams; my mother’s screams. As soon as I went their; an explosion just blew off the old tree house I was standing a bit far from it; blew me as well. I fell unconsciously. Suddenly I could feel; that someone picked me from where I was; I could imagine it; and I could feel it. Taking me somewhere; I could hear noises; screams. I was laid in bed. Didn’t open my eyes. As I felt the years have gone so fast. But something went inside me; like a sharp needle; injection perhaps.
I didn’t know what it was; I can feel it through. They thought I was dead. I was wide awake. Just as I knew it; knew what they have done to me; my memories starts to fade away. I felt I was something else; something more terrifying. Like a monster. Growling monster.
But why? I didn’t know; I don’t even understand. I need answers to my questions. I never got. Until the day; I was really wide awake. I was back to this town. The town where I was first married to this handsome guy. Someone was right beside me.
My dear friend, Mai. She woke me up. I was lying on this huge bed; I felt I was back home. But the memories I had were gone. Mai asked me about this guy I was with. I didn’t understand what she was talking about. I look at my hand; there is no ring.
Nothing at all, so she knew the explosion made me forget about things. So she stood right next to me when I needed her. How come I still remember her? Remember my past? But never remembered my dear husband. Why him? I never understood why. So the days as past. As I was stronger than ever.
May 20th, 2011
Things has changed. Things was normal. I worked. But something was always in my mind. Revenge. I thought the only guy that I know the guy that Mai has told me. He is the only guy who involve with the explosion. I thought it was him. But wasn’t. so I start planning it wisely; when all of this was planned by them. They plan to catch the guy who murdered my parents, and he was innocent.
He thought I went insane. He talked to Mai behind my back, I thought he was tricking her or something; but he was just asking her if I am okay. Mai told him that I don’t remember him at all, so he made up his mind not to get involve in my life until the time is right.
Later on, I met those people that I thought were the most important ones in my life. Then, when I got a bit closer with my best friend; things turned to worse. They killed her by sending out two other men I don’t know; saying the boss wants her dead by the name of my loved one, Yuri.
Yuri is my husband the I once thought he is a murderer. When they were the ones who planned all this. The explosion was there idea. Pretty much a mistake they did; so they planned it very cleverly.
February 11th, 2013
I was their closest friend ever. I know; I have talked about Andy for a while; how he is involve in this. I knew he was doing something; hiding something when I found out his name wasn’t Andy, but Jin. His name was Jin, and Jessica is his wife. He killed his own wife; for the sake of revenge.
And walked away with it; with no harm; pretending that he have a twin brother exactly like him. Pretending he wasn’t a serial killer. Interesting. A serial killer that doesn’t exist. Well he exist in this period of time by the name of Andy. Then this detective guy; poor guy. I thought of as a man. A caring, loving man. Who wouldn’t do such thing. Ruining a person life; for something so useless.
Well it’s not to him; but really. There are millions of doctors out there who will do anything to save people’s lives. But he never cared; it’s free. Yeah, selfish. You don’t have money? Work! You’ll be fine. But don’t ruin people’s lives. What a huge favor he made.
All of this ended in my way. Everything has planned my way. August 30th, 2013. Everything will be all right. later that day. I called Yuri over. He wants to check if I am alright; because things is about to end. So he stay near me for all of the time; and I pretended I never talked to him.
I completely regained my memories back and what they kept on giving me is not working with me anymore. Pills to erase my memories every time I wake up. So, I was happy he came to me that day, until he left. Telling me to be careful; and left out. Not knowing what happen. Until the end of it. when he walked out of the apartment; I could say something; or something that I see far ahead.
A car heading straight to my apartment; and crashed my neighbor’s car. I checked to see what wrong with that guy; but I could see two men. As soon as I walked down; those two men; hidden faces grabbed me in and drove me away. Tight me as well. I don’t know to where. But somewhere to the woods I guess. I felt dizzy a bit; I don’t know what they were doing. But I could say they found out about us. I started to bleed. So as soon as the car stopped I punched the guy next to me in the face; then he punched me back. That hurts real bad. I started to get scared.
So they drop me to the ground; and start to push me in the ground; like a rolling dog. And one of them screamed loudly and said, “You tricked us into this” I started laughing. I couldn’t help it. but I could see that they stopped hitting me; pulling their mask off. I couldn’t see clear anymore. But all I said was, who are you? What do you want from me? They started to laugh. I could hear Gai Gami laughing so hard from laughter. And I could see those evil eyes on Jin’s face.
But suddenly, I could see someone from far away; shot Gai Gami; and fell on the ground. But then, Jin picked me up from the floor; and screamed loudly telling who ever the person was; that he is going to shoot me in those spare good hand of his……
not even seconds, not even minutes. I remembered I was something; why I am acting such an innocent girl. All of a sudden I kicked him on the ground; and fell as well as he shoot Yuri on his hand. I looked at Yuri and I went insane.
I grabbed the gun that was on his hand; stepped on his finger as he start screaming for help. I ran all the way to Yuri; cause he seems in pain. I took off my sweater and wrapped it on his arm. I thought it was the end of everything; however; Jin grabbed another shot gun that was right next to Gai Gami that I forgot to take.
As soon as he pressed the trigger; I could hear Yuri’s voice yelling; move! He pushed me to the ground and he pushed himself to the other side. And I got up; immediately ran to Jin; grabbed his arm tightly. “What a strong woman that I made by my own”, he said; laughing in a evil way.
I got mad of his nonsense; I could be just a hero; but I could be an immortal killer for once. I grabbed his gun again; and shot him run through his head. He fell on the ground dead. I stood still; couldn’t believe what I have done; killing someone. I hear Yuri shouting to me; telling me everything is going to be alright. I shouted back. “This won’t bring my parents back!”
he looked at me surprisingly and said, but it brought us back. I could see his tears shedding from his eyes; I could say joy.
I pulled him up from the ground; making sure that I am not touching his arm that was injured. I think it’s over now. It remind me of a game that is played on those PC’s. An interesting one. It like I never meant for this to happen. I don`t even have the slightest idea what happened.
All I know, is that I was free-falling for the sky...and that’s it, it’s like a game is played. I don`t know my name when I got here, where I`m from, or how I even got here. So similar to those games, the character of the game felt something strange...something she know about.
Down below, the demons are planning something. They`ve got everything set. The army, the weapons, and the plans. But she can`t let them get past the gates. That`s why she, and maybe some companions, have got a plan but wasn’t a plan like ours; a bit confusing. Or else...
The angels are doomed. And then, the world will end. But here we are; not exactly like those games we play. Were back on our feet safely and not injured. Soon, no one knew what happen to them, neither us.
As I continue writing this; a diary full of memories; painful one. "Tonight I'll stand in the light so Yuri can count how many tears fall from my eyes... This time I'll be alright, my heart can't get any worse. I will sit on the a park bench, sitting with him. This will stay forever and I am sure. So right now.
When the fireworks started he told me to close my eyes, that something magical was about to happen and to put out my hand. From the place of the cold air there turned to be a smooth silver box. In it was the most beautiful ring in the world with so much sparkles and elegance tears were forming in my eyes that he would give me such beautiful thing. He held me tighter to him and whispered in my ear “My love, my world, will you forever be mine to love and only mine to love.
Tears were slowly coming down my face like falling crystals and I turned to see his beautiful loving eyes. He had already proven time after time that he would be there for me and would love me no matter what the world have given to us. I told him that we are already married; but unfortunately he wants me to have a new brand ring on my finger. A cute one too.
Till today; everything went were it suppose to be. I’ve a great family. The one that will always be in my side no matter what happens. I think you know the end of this. The end of us; that brought us back again....
Author Note:
I wrote this novel; for a purpose. Of course all authors have their own purpose of what they write; and their novel is about. Mine seems different. Written differently. What I was looking for here, or what my purpose is. I could say for instance. Life can lead us to many places. It can be cruel, or it could be amazing. You never know am I right. But we should know, deep down our hearts; what matter what we see around; never forget who you are and why you’re here. What the purpose of all that. And I understand memories and life experience can transform a person so differently; that they can change their whole life to another one. Or changing to something so different; whether its good or bad. No one should know but yourself.
So what’s life means to you? You should carefully ask yourself…
"You never know what you have, until it's gone." That is the saying I have heard my entire life. That night that tore my world into a million pieces. The night that, no matter how hard I tried, I would never forget. The night that I personally was able to understand the meaning of that very saying. Another's point of view, real life, same hardships and same experiences. It's quite amazing how much it can all change from another's sight... There are always hardships that take place sometime in your life. That happened to us, to you and or anybody else. This all has happened/will happen. This is an accompaniment of 'The Hard Way.’ I learned it, the hard way. I have worked so hard getting things right. But sometimes we fall; I know. It happens but from inside, the thoughts we have. The wills we have in those spare hands. We should ask our self, can we possibly forget what has passed? What comes right through your mind; speak it. Don’t keep it in. Let it out. When I do think of this question, I answer with a yes. Yes I can, and I start to walk over to the blurry mirror; cause I know it’s from the foggy weather. But I still can look through it, so I start to have this unusual feelings, feelings the strain and shedding tears over disappointments that has passed. Will it go? I asked myself again, I said, I can start over. Going forward to a new life, so bright. And I start over like none of this had happened…but I still stand still looking at the mirror. The mirror reflected me somehow; reversing everything in life. A total life change, it’s like a dream come true; I expect anything to happen. And as I said; saying it again whether its good or bad; it doesn’t matter. What goes around you; is what comes the best out of it. The dignity inside of us. The self respect we hold in. the hopes and what reflects it the most is what we give inside, love. Love life. Love yourself and your loved ones. Also love what you do; stay positive because I know all of us can do this and do the best we can to have it. To have life as our own.